Thank you so much Breaking Dawn, I appreciate your kind words. I thought I was making a lot of progress, but last night I ended up back in the ER due to severe and overwhelming panic and dread... it just seemed to get worse and worse, building despite the fact I wasn't consciously thinking of anything upsetting. I really feared for my sanity, thinking that if it continued to escalate that I would become psychotic. I did take an ativan but I didn't feel that it helped me near as much as I needed it to... I just can't cope with this. The fear of it happening again keeps me paranoid and on edge, I feel like I can't live my life. It felt like re-experiencing my trauma all over again, making it fresh once more- despite all the work I've been putting in to improve.