I’ve been in the forum for Avpd, then in Borderline PD’s one. Always feeling as a free verse.
I basically have depression. Part innate and part reactive to my high anxiety.
My psychiatrist described my personality as a personality type belonging to cluster C.
I see myself pretty dependant if I look at my past and current behaviour.
Barely feeling able to do things by myself. Things that anyone who is normal is able to do.
I always put myself in a second, third... place. It’s as if I didn’t deserve my own place. As if I were different. Inappropriate, defective.
It happens to me with family, friends, acquaintances and even strangers.
The few times I could be a little brave was when there was someone to encourage me by my side. If not, I’m lost.