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Originally Posted by Return To Sender
Not doing well. I'm getting very fearful, and not getting an adequate night's sleep isn't helping(if sleeping at all some nights!). I know if I was asleep right now I would be doing my mind so much good but I can't. We(me, Dad, Stepmom) just had such a nice evening with my sister, her boyfriend and my niece and nephew. (Dinner out and then back to the house to talk.) I have so many issues about fear of germs that it's the middle of the night, and there would be so much to do to get myself "sanitized" again after going out in the world(all the things I had to touch and use while out and the kissing and hugging) that I'm wearing the same thing I wore when out, didn't wash my face or brush my teeth and I'm trying to sleep lying on the rug in my bedroom fully dressed with only a pillow so I don't get germs on my bed or blankets. I woke up uncomfortable and cold so here I am. Miserable and ready to cry. They are coming over bringing breakfast for us before they leave, so I figured I'd begin the decontamination process after they left since it takes a long time and they left last night around 10:00pm. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled to see them and I love them, but my mind is overwhelmed. And now I'm afraid to post, even my usual word games on here or sending a friend a pm because I'm afraid anything, any wrong word will trigger someone or hurt someone or cause something bad to happen. I am trying to be so careful, and it is paralyzing me. My dear Dad said tonight that I should fight it(the monster of my germ fear), and I told him, "But it's so big! It's this tall(and I held my hand up high.)"
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I hope that we’re able to get a nap in.
So you felt contaminated?? I understand it. I have a big ocd issue with germs. I worked in medical all my life so it’s a real thing. But you can make changes and rather quickly to be honest.
Ok you went out and touched a lot , so instead of staying in your clothes and ruining a possible night of sleep. Try this ..
When you come home from anywhere.. immediately jump in the shower. Get the offending clothes off and in the hamper. Scrub scrub away.
It leaves you still with a problem about germs but before you go you already know how you can take care of it once your home... control
Do you worry about germs only while out? Or at home too ? For me it’s both, so I clean daily. Bathrooms and kitchen gets cleaned daily. , control..
while I’m out I use the wipes most stores have near there shopping carts. While I’m out I remind myself over and over to not touch my face, that’s where germs can cause illness. For just the overall “ germs everywhere” I keep Purel in my car and I have a very small bottle in my purse I just refill as needed
Yes I still struggle with more concern over germs than say my husband but I know what to do to “ manage “ it.
So instead of being frozen in fear and lying on a rug in your clothes, come home take a shower and put on clean clothes.
Control... Control ... Control