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Victoria'smom · Nov 30, 2019, 09:05 PM

I'm questioning if I'm mixed right now? I'm typing to avoid IOP or calling pdoc/T. I know I will get through this. I just don't know how. I'm going to continue to add to this until I see pdoc on the 16th.

Trigger for feelings like assault, ED, SH feelings.

Possible trigger:

I can't stand this nervous energy, I'm nauseous because my ED is back minus the psychosis, I really want to hurt myself but all I have access to is the keys in my pocket. I hate how my body is reacting. It's like any moment I'm going to be murdered or something. The sucky thing is I can't figure out how to explain myself. I'm so confused and overwhelmed. Along with feeling physically ill. I feel like a little kid throwing a fit. H and I went from fighting a lot to not talking. I can’t even go to bed with him because of my heightened sense something bad is going to happen to me. My head luckily isn’t on the same page as my body or I wouldn’t be in the home right now. I’m trying really hard to concentrate on getting through Christmas. I can make it 2 weeks. I want to take an ambien so I can hopefully sleep well and wake up fine.