Hi Stew. Welcome to the forum. What you describe is all to familier. I too have panic disorder, depression and OCD. I currently take medication to help me but it is not 100%. My suggestion to you is to research panic disorder, get the facts and understand how it works and why. This will give you a better understanding of what your body and mind go through when having a panic attack. I went to my pdoc yesterday and we talked at length about upping my meds once again. Needless to say I was up half the night worrying about that and I hate the constant worry that plagues me. You are definitly not alone. I am 31 and have been dealing with this since I was 19. Please know that there will be long periods of time where things go very well and periods of time when they don't go well but remember to hold on to the good times because the bad times don't last for long. We are here for you when you need us. Thanks for your post and take care. My thoughts are with you. By the way, I think it was a good idea not to take your girlfriend back after what she did. If there is one thing I have learned in life that trust and loyalty are most important.

Good Luck,

Jen