Hugs, Kit--I'm glad you weren't successful. By recent, do you mean in the past week? I recall you saying you'd told your T how you were feeling and she didn't really seem to be overly concerned or anything--like didn't tell you to go to the hospital if you keep feeling that way. . I think you need to tell her (and maybe Pastor T, too, less sure about him) so that she understands to take these feelings seriously and to help you figure out a crisis plan. Honestly, the fact that she didn't seem to take this seriously concerned me... But I think you need to tell her. Hugs...