Went back to the ER last night because I was having an allergic reaction. I think it was due to one of the antibiotics they gave me. My lips are still tingling and swollen. And my abscess still hurts. I'm starting to worry because I don't want to be like my H always rushing to the ER. But I had good reasons for each visit. And it was the holiday, so I couldn't see my PCP. The doctor at the ER last night said I have to go to my clinic this week to check the wound and my allergic reaction.

L was actually able to make it to yesterday's session. It wasn't a good session. I wrote her that she didn't care. She said that hurt her. Now I feel so bad and guilty. I know she cares. Hell, she made it to our session just for me. I don't think she had anyone else. She's been so good to me. I don't know why I flipped out on her. I cried the whole session and apologized profusely. I am truly sorry. I feel like I need to be punished in some way.