I have been having a hard time I keep seeing flashes of my sister's horrible mean face. When I saw the accounting the judge insisted she provide and all the cash withdrawls where she was taking so much money and blamed me for? I think about how I met my brother at my parents and their home stunk to high heaven and their refrigerator stunk SO BAD and when I opened it everything in it was moldy and bad. My father's teeth looked bad, all black at the gum line and when my brother and I tried to pitch in to take him to the dentist my sister found out and stopped us. My sister insisted only SHE can care for his health needs and she refused to address his teeth and there was no money ALL THE WHILE taking all this money. My father finally collapsed with pneumonia and I was banned from visiting him or talking to the doctors. I did plead with the nurse to PLEASE tell the doctor to look at my father's teeth. Bad teeth can weaken an elderly person and make them much more susceptible to getting pneumonia, it's a fact. It was SO HARD to see how much money she took and accused me of taking when there was no way I could have done that.

When I saw all my parents belongings, and things missing? Ugh....she is again stealing anything she finds of value. And yet she stops me at the door insisting I not bring my handbag in? She coerced my parents into setting up their Will and Trust that gave her literally all the power over them and their money. I could never do any of this, it's horrifying. And my effort to fight back comes out of whatever is left that would go to me and my older brother while SHE continues to take from whatever is left.

I don't know what you call this kind of person, a person who can be so manipulative and cold and calculating and mean, so damn mean.

I just feel sick and I get these flashes and struggle to believe and process it all. I think I am still in shock. I get these chills and pain and I just want to crawl up in a ball under the covers with the heat blowing on me.