It’s 9 pm now. I’ve had interviews with a senior nurse, and my pdoc. The nurse was amazing. So skilled, funny, and compassionate. My pdoc apologised for not getting back to me last week. He had problems getting messages that day. Technology hey. He was very supportive, and talked with me about what I think they can do to best help me. No med changes apart from extra Clonazepam and Seroquel. He also suggested I tell my parents that he wants me to have a few days without visitors to give me a break from the trigger of seeing them. I know a break would be good but I feel so guilty as my Mum lives to serve others so will be lost at home not visiting me.

These positive experiences with my pdoc and nurse have helped ease the paranoia. Still, SI floods me. I’m on frequent observations to keep me safe.

Thank you so much for all your replies. They really mean a great deal to me.