does anyone feel that you just waste your time over some things.

I was thinking about this today re: christmas.

I have a tree

I have decorations

I have my alexa playing christmas music

but for what?

christmas day I'm going to be sat here alone, probably eating too much food, opening gifts that I got myself (which judging by my financial state, won't be anything this year)

does anyone feel like this?. not just about christmas, for anything

maybe about treatment: you think you're making progress and then you slip down again