Thanks everyone for the encouragement and letting me know you think it's a good idea to talk to my T (or maybe both T's and possibly Pdoc). I should have gone to the hospital. *Hindsight is 20/20* I think I will tell regular T. I'm not sure about Pastor T. He had knee replacement surgery two weeks ago, so I haven't seen him as a patient/client in a few (3?) weeks. He asked me in the hallway at Church yesterday if I was doing okay and I kind of lied and said, "Ok-ish" I didn't think that was the time or place to talk about it. Especially with people milling around and I'm not entirely sure I am comfortable telling him stuff like that because he is close to my parents. I know confidentiality and all that, but they can break that if there is suicidal thinking involved. He told me to keep working on the visualizations. I'm not sure if I can get in to see Pdoc. He is moving his practice at the beginning of the year so he is super packed right now. I can try to see if I can get on a wait list, if he still has a wait list. I'll definitely talk to regular T on Wednesday though. Thank you everyone for your support. HUGS Kit