I'm really frustrated with your self sabotage I'm sorry your frustrated I'm not self sabotaging.

it seems like you have crisis's to see the t and pdoc. I don't have crisis to see my treatment team. I've only 2x seen them outside my appointment ever. In the 4 years I've been here. Before that I called outside session 1x when I was psychotic and didn't understand what was going on with me. I often refrain from asking for more support.

It's as if you find illogical excuses to avoid ANY learning of coping skills. You seem to reject stability and find comfort in crisis's. I come off here as less stable then I am. I research and practice coping mechanisms a lot. Usually before I say no I've already tried it.

You come up with pathetic excuses not to go to IOP I've only been offered IOP 1x ever. The clinics I go to doesn't even offer IOP anymore.

as if you have decided your identity is a broken mentally ill person and any coping skills will threaten your identity. No, I don't identify as a mentally ill person. I identify more as a mother/wife then mentally ill.

Your RULES are not rules they are obstacles and barriers you put up to keep from having to learn healthy coping skills and handcuff the providers and keep them from efficient treatment for you. I don't have rules.

Think what you are modeling to your son. that your illness controls you and that you are helpless and nobody can help. I'm modeling open and honesty with your treatment, keeping appointments, trying while between appointments, and things like that.