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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs
Hi Wander, I am so sorry you are struggling like this.  I am glad you are in the hospital and that you made that call. I am also glad to hear that the nurse was kind and your pdoc supportive. Is there anything you can try to help bring yourself physically back into the present and to feel more grounded? Maybe one of the staff can guide you through an exercise? Are there opportunities for movement like walks, yoga? Right now it sounds like you are in a safe environment with people who want to help you. If you are afraid you will leave too soon could you discuss your concerns with the pdoc? |
Thanks. I just spoke to my nurse who helped ground me, and give me wise advice. I discussed my desperate urge abscond to end it all. She offered me all the support possible to keep me safe. She has known me for nine years throughout many hospitalisations (not that I saw her every time) so she can read me well. I’m lucky to have her as my primary nurse this admission. I haven’t chatted to her much for years.
She gave me Seroquel. It didn’t help last night but I’ve had a higher dose. There are meditation and yoga classes here once a week. Right now I’m too terrified and paranoid to go though. I’m worse today than when I was admitted. The nurses are watching me closely. I’m still curled up in my bed to prevent myself from running away.
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