I work for myself and periodically go through a period of time when I feel like I literally can’t force myself to physically sit down at my desk and start working. Days go by and I do a hundred other things but can’t get myself to sit down and start working. I can’t even explain it, It feels like it would be mentally overwhelming but I also feel like there’s a physical force holding me back and I start to do it but then say no I just can’t. Nothing about the work is overly difficult for me or boring. ( I’m an investigator that looks into the social history of Defendants who have committed violent crimes)

I’m running up huge credit card debt because I’m barely making anything even though I have court funding authorized for my cases. I just have to do the work!

Anyone else ever get a block like this? I’ve tried doing little bits for short time, telling myself reasons why I have to make money, just can’t get myself to do the initial sit down and start. Not sure if it’s cuz I have no one pressuring me so I slip into my depression and can’t find the strength and desire to do it or just what it is.

Any /all suggestions or insight welcome !
Ps I can do physical things, , just painted bathroom this weekend, put up Christmas lights, decorated tree, shopped for Christmas, made thanksgiving meal, went to grandkids activities etc but the thinking mental part I feel like a force is stopping me!