Yeah I think that way a lot. It affects the decisions I make, how I relate to people including my family, work, etc.
It started many years ago when I would imagine hypothetical situations and take them to their worst possible outcome. It spilled over into my regular thoughts as my anxiety got worse. It just got worse from there.
The problem is that sometimes parts of the scenarios I imagined came true so my thinking was validated.
I figured out myself that this was becoming a problem and I was getting feedback from people I know and my family that they noticed that I always imagine the worst.
I can't say I'm over it but as I get older I gain more life experience and perspective and see that not everything goes awfully wrong and even if it goes wrong it's not as extreme as I thought it would be.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS)
* Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal
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