I haven't posted here for a really long time. My dr decreased one of my meds slightly a few weeks ago because I was very sleepy all the time, and for the past week I've been sliding into depression again. Yesterday and today it's been really intense, many suicidal thoughts and urges, the urge to run away and "disappear" or just a fantasy of willing myself to cease to exist. I spoke to my therapist but she didn't really give me any immediate advice (ie: maybe call your dr/give it more time) (and I didn't directly ask, stupidly). I'm not sure how long to give it until I ask my dr what to do.

Apart from my therapist I don't really have anyone to talk to at the moment. Most of my close friends are currently very involved in their own problems and don't have the capacity to listen to me talking about stuff I'm going through.