If you're feeling this bad, My Advice would be to just contact your Doctor and Therapist as soon as you can! Perhaps you need a change in Meds or to return back to your previous Meds based on what you wrote. In any case, definitely contact your Doctor if things keep getting worse. How long until you see your Therapist? I feel like you have every right to ask for some advice and coping skills when you don't feel well. Perhaps contact your Therapist and tell her that you want to make another appointment soon and that you're feeling REALLY bad. Hopefully she'll be able to rearrange her schedule to see you sooner. If that isn't possible, can you hang on for a week or until your see her again? Hopefully it isn't too much time! I know it isn't too much, but we ar ehere for you so please feel free to speak to ANY of us. If you're feeling suicidal, contact a Suicide Prevention Hotline or go to an Hospital near you. In any case, keep hanging on as much as you possibly can! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @nikon, your Family, your Friends, your Doctor, your Therapist, your Social Workers and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND, AWESOME AND WONDERFUL FRIEND?!