It is not your fault, my friend. You are doing anything we can. Unfortunately our minds are very powerful and can be our biggest enemies. That is no fault of your own - if you've been convinced for many years that you're worthless, you start believing that is true. But that isn't the case, MY FRIEND! I know you and I know how much you're worth it. Please remember that this is only your mind playing tricks on you. Please reach out to me, Friend - and to all of us! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, my friend, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?! KEEP IT UP, FRIEND!