So sorry this happened to you! It sounds like you were pretty incredible, in how you handled it, tho. You immediately put a stop to his unwanted advances, and drew a clear boundary line of "this is NOT acceptable to me". Good job! It sounds like you've not only had to deal with a lot of abusive people, as well as the rape, but a lot of people invalidating you, also. I'd feel like blaming myself, too, if so many around me were trying to tell me I was somehow at fault. I'm trying to learn the difference between putting up walls, and putting up boundaries, myself. So yeah, you're impressing me on how well you did!