I had a breakdown at my job. Luckily, I wasn't in front of anyone. I went out to my car and took my PRN medication. Things are getting so bad to the point where I am considering short-term disability. I've been really trying, but it's like I wake up, and everything just resets again. Can't seem to make it stop. I just took a break from work due to my mental health using almost all of my days, and it still wasn't enough. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. I see my pdoc next week and plan to go back to therapy, since I had taken a break from therapy previously. I can't go back to my one therapist, because she only takes 1 type of insurance, and sliding scale is too much. So I started making phone calls and emails to find a T. I'm hoping therapy will be the answer, because I want to be able to continue to work. I can't tell if my increase in meds is doing anything or not. It does make me tired. I am afraid of all my meds being changed around again. Maybe it's too early to tell.