Hi everyone! I haven't been on in awhile. Hope everyone is well. Hugs to those that are struggling.

I've had ups and downs. Been off benzos for about 3 months. I'm glad I'm off them, but struggle with anxiety quite a bit. It's really difficult. But I use some dbt skills.

My family is well. The day before Thanksgiving, I got suicidal and cried most the day. Part of it was from lack of sleep. Since coming off the diazepam I just don't sleep well.

I see a new pdoc on the 13th. I'm hoping he has some ideas. I changed pdocs bc mine wanted to take me off gabapentin. This was after she had told me that she would leave my meds the same. I can't go off gabapentin, its the only thing that's helping my anxiety.

My son is psychotic on and off. They've diagnosed him with sza. I really feel for him. He struggles so. I just do my best to be there for him. He's not always consistent with his meds. It can get frustrating. I love him so much and just want the best for him.

I'm still struggling with bathing. I got a new tdoc as well. The last one I had was let go. It's difficult when you're on medicaid. Lots of turn over. I really like this new therapist tho. My ptsd has been acting up here and there. But she really wants to help me. I'm slowly building trust with her. She's young. I hope she sticks around.

So I'm coping. I hope to post more often. Anyway that's the update from me, lol. take care everyone!