Long time since I last posted on here. Not much has really changed. I find myself in a really bad state of mind. I'm not suicidal, but I find myself wishing ,hoping and praying every night that that I just dont wake up the next day. I hate my corporate job that I've been working at for 8 years, and somehow I only make barely over minimum wage, but I can't quit cuz I'm so far into debt I barely have enough money for food.my apartment is a living nightmare with neighbors out of a horror movie. Between drug dealers and the smells coming from possible hoarders downstairs, I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown every second of every single day and the landlord ignores it. I have nothing to look forward too. Even my favorite hobby has become nothing but a meaningless chore. I'm so fed up with everything and people in general I dont know what to do. I'm literally living in the movie idiocracy on a daily basis and just want to scream. How am I supposed to keep slaving away at this pathetic life ?