In 2 days I'm seeing a psychiatrist but I'm watching video after video of horrifying side effects of antipsychotic meds but I'm wondering if even antidepressants are also bad. People saying they lost intelligence, their mind. Permanently! One guy saying it was like he got a lobotomy, & he's off his meds!! So even after his meds he never gained back his mind?

I feel like I'm on the verge of having a serious panic attack. My psychologist has strongly encouraged me to seeing a psychiatrist.

I don't know what to do. I understand everyone reacts differently. I guess most people don't lose their mind or intelligence or feel like they had a lobotomy, but what if I'm one of those people?

I would appreciate any help what I should do. I feel like my psychologist is concerned about the voices I hear & my delusional beliefs, but I can get myself to forget about my delusional beliefs, and in the past the voices have always faded away if I push them away & not talk to the voices. So my concern is intense 24/7 anxiety & depression. I want a antidepressant but I'm afraid there's also the possibility of it permanently taking away my mind. I don't see as many bad videos about antidepressants but maybe they're just as bad.

Here's the video that just scared me to pieces, if anyone's interested in watching it. The video is bad, but some of the comments are terrifying.

Life After Psych Drugs: Will Your Intelligence Return?


and another, not as scary:

When will you feel like yourself again after coming off psych drugs?


Thanks, I appreciate any help!