Hey under*over-
I really feel for you. Finding the right providers can be HARD and it sounds like you’ve really been through it. And med changes are HARD and I can’t even imagine changing all your meds at once- yikes!! I always struggle with weighing the pros & cons of adjusting a single med at a time, as the side effects are sometimes worse than the benefits. If you absolutely cannot tolerate the side effects of switching all those meds, I’d ask for the soonest available appointment, even if it’s with a different provider. And before you go in, have specific notes written down of what your side effects are and what you’re hoping to improve with medication changes. I really believe we play a huge role in advocating for ourselves (which can be tough, especially when we aren’t doing well- but I’ve found that notes really help!).
You mentioned that you don’t have a lot of support, but if you do have a family member or friend who can help advocate for you, bring them to the appointment as well.
It sounds like you’re putting in a lot of effort to live your best life- props to you. Hoping things start getting better soon-
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