Hi Blanche, I mentioned you in my response bc what you said was true about myself in regards to what I learned growing up and being hurt, emotionally etc. I wasn't trying to single you out.

It was also early in the morning when I read everyone's responses, and it just felt like a lot and some things, fit better w me than others but that's not to say everyone didn't help bc everyone did!

In terms of thinking of myself as always caring too much what others think, well, I don't know. Maybe. But I don't know. If yes, its not all of me (it doesn't define me). And I don't feel the need to analyze it actually. The way you say it sounds like a put down, to be honest. I do appreciate you trying to help in the rest of your post.

Thank you again everyone. Planning on going to that party.