Struggling today, getting depressed about how badly I treated my body and all the sugar and junk food I used to eat.
I have been chronically ill for 35 years so just realising how I should do things differently.
I have always known what's healthy and what's bad but I had addictions to sugar and junk food and an eating disorder,
my eating has always been out of control but these last nine years were worse, I gained weight and was unable to exercise and due to depression I'd
comfort eat and it was a vicious cycle. I feel bad that I didn't take care of myself for so long. As well as physical illness I had mental illness and I focused on the problems associated with that and also I suffered loads of abuse from my narcissist sister. I don't blame her I blame myself. I shouldn't have put every one else and their needs above my own. I have a lot of regrets that I am thinking about today.