No giving up hope yet.
There's chemicals that aren't discovered yet and they together all can do unlimited things. We know psychedelics increase connections in the brain and can even grow new neurons as well as exercise, certain foods (Chemicals and atoms), brain games, life experience.
It seems hopeless because of not knowing the "way" to the cure. But it's there.. Somewhere.. We just don't know so the possibility of the "way" fades..
The time that it can take (You being 30 something years old) seems like it's a dead end and there's no point of trying..
They're working on cognitive enhancers for negative symptoms of schizophrenia.. They're fascinating drugs.. If only we were a utopia but do what you are able to do right now and crawl your way out... People are here to help and give you encouragement and inspiration.. Some people are assholes and don't do that because they're caught in a loop of a ****** being.. Egotistical, narcissistic, jealous, vindictive, unwilling to change, judgemental, etc...