Lots of wise words above. When I get to this place you describe yourself being, I am reminded of what a very smart person told me about my incessant worrying over someone else's thoughts and views of me. He said: "What other people think of you--it's actually not any of your business."

And he was right. It isn't. It's their business. My business is to conduct myself today to the best of my current abilities, not fret over what is really sort of spilled milk at the end of the day.

You need to put this crap firmly in the past, where it belongs, and get your butt into living in the present moment. That is your trip out of this, in my humble opinion.

Two different approaches to addressing shame are below. Thich Nhat Hanh is a genius Buddhist monk who writes simply and beautifully and who could in my view someday win a Nobel Prize for his contributions to world peace. Brene Brown is an empathy researcher at the University of Houston and she teaches Shame Resilience. As it happens, I taught a shame resilience course based on her books. Def worth checking out.

Sending you positive vibes and prayers. You can do this. You are a good person. Make it happen. For you!

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