I am also disturbed by the over-emotional reaction of the T. Glad you did tell her, suggest you also talk to someone else you trust (you are still having thoughts?) also. Have you ever worked with a therapist skilled in DBT or CBT? Both are really helpful for developing coping skills for SI and feelings of despair/lost hope. Although you say she talks about developing a plan-----What is the plan besides calling her? What are the things that you can do yourself to calm/soothe yourself? Hang in there. ((((((hug))))))