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Originally Posted by Wander
I’m drowning, f***ing drowning. My pdoc still hasn’t shown up for days (I’m IP). Nurse got a phone script for me. I’ve taken 200 mg of Seroquel, and 2 mg of Lorazepam. Still very anxious, and irritable. I ended up sobbing when I found out pdoc wasn’t coming in, and my nurse was seemingly blasé about the level of my distress.
All day I’ve been communicating my distress but I’m a calm way so wasn’t taken seriously. This time I lost it and wept and ranted. I’m in trouble. I’m so close to acting. The nurses know this, but I still could sneak out. I’m just hoping the drugs knock me out before I get that far. I’m terrified. PTSD is hell.
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Sorry to hear that, Wander. That sounds disheartening.
I hope your pdoc shows up soon, but it's good to hear that the nurse at least got a phone script for you.
Try your best not to sneak out of IP if you know you're close to acting. IP is a safe space and a place to get better.
In my opinion -- and other people's opinions may differ -- you should tell the nurses the truth, that you don't think they're taking you seriously. Confront them about it. Confront someone about it.
I do wonder, though... I know that sometimes hospitals are understaffed, people are overworked, and some get underpaid. That leads to laziness and or not caring as much. Do you think that's the case? That was the case for my grandma when she was in IP (lazy, uncaring staff because they were understaffed, overworked, and likely underpaid). What helped in that case was having someone from the outside advocate for her (my parents). Do you think that would help if your parents could talk to them?