he gave me zyprexa, he said therapy alone wouldnt make it go away, he said i need medication desperately bad and that im severly bipolar 1.

im going to a psychologist thursday , and also to a psychiatrist same day, to decide on a med.....
the urgent care doc said i could come back to see him on friday....

as far as ahow im doing....
im just so ashamed...
just been isolating myself and i hate it.
i hurt inside, im afraid to face people...
i want to walk around with a paper bag over my head...

the most recent storm was so bad, i am embarrassed because of it. i may have bruised my image and my relationships with everyone... in real life and here...
i feel like i failed i constantly fail... like, i cant even get my kids to school on time they are like 2 hours late, and i feel pathetic cuz the house isnt clean and i spent half my rent money in a manic state...
i need to snap out of it and i cant.
this is all so very humbling.