I hope I'm not sounding intrusive, but do you have a counselor? Sometimes pain is just too big for us to carry on our own anymore. It's wonderful that you are reaching out here, and we're all standing with you, but there's just no substitute for a professional. "Hopeless" is only the depression talking, not reality. Depression and anxiety are sadistic liars. Don't believe them!


Again, we're all here standing with you!