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Originally Posted by Gasplessy
Thanks to everyone 
To answer the questions from Crypts_of_the_mind
I messed up a bit some people' lives in the last two years, because I had mental problems and isolated and couldn't manage my contacts and relations in a healthy way... also I had a serious psychotic episode some months ago :/ . I was not very aware of my condition at first |
The fact you are aware of it now is the most important part. You are proactively trying to help yourself by talking to us as well, so that is awesome too. Do you also see a psychiatrist or counselor?
All of us with mh issues tend to mess things up in a big way when our issues flare too big. Dont beat yourself up over "the mess" - but give yourself props for trying to fix yourself. If you see any (healthy) way of possibly trying to help mend things with these other people, then you can do that too if you want.
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I messed up with a person I was in love with and also made him lose precioua time and get confused
Sorry if I don't explain in details
I humiliated myself because i've not been working for a very long time now
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I'm not sure how you feel you can cause a person to waste time - but generally what a person does with his or her time is his or her choice. Maybe someone chooses to do something for you and regrets it later ... you still did not waste that poo person's time bc you did not make them do anything, they chose to. Don't beat yourself up. ❤
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Of course I know there are bigger problems in this world, but for the first time in my life I feel I suffer this circumstances like if this is a point of no return. I went too far, i wasted
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I am of the thought there is no hurt that is bigger or lesser than another. So - if it hurts, it is significant. We all react differently to the same circumstances. The pain someone may feel from failing a test in college may be just as bad as the pain someone else feels from the death of a loved one. We therefore cannot judge what is big or small. I am just happy you are talking yours through now. *hugs*
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I'm not a teen
I created a awkward non-sense situation when I was in my very late 20s and after two years I feel like everything has been in a mixer-minipimer
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Why do you mention you are not a teen here? Do you feel only teens are "allowed" to make these kinds of mistakes?
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I feel alienated and feel the world is not ok
Maybe is ocd but for example when i felt i was going mad the Amazon forest was burning this year
I said to myself "I'm a bad human in this world, i messed up with love for non-sense reasons, ruined other people lives, lost chances
And there is violence and there are adults who can't control themeselves
I'm not cruel of course but I've been feeling so dumb and a failure
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This sounds like depression.
Try getting some sunlight during the day. Go on walks or do other low impact exercises. Try helping out people either on here or in your offline life. If you have a pet - snuggle up with it, play with it, pet it. Get more socially active if you can.
These are all things which stimulate different things in the brain to help us feel happier. There are other things too, but give these a try and see what happens. *hugs*