Turns out my pdoc was at the hospital work Christmas party last night which is why they couldn’t reach him. It was the on call pdoc that they finally got through to to get a much stronger med ordered.

Today a close friend might visit me. I haven’t seen her for months. I hate meeting while I’m so ill. I get worried I’m going to burn my loved ones out. We have been friends for over twenty years so she’s seen me at my worst. I wanted to get leave so we could take her puppy for a walk, but only my pdoc can approve leave, and even if he shows up/or is asked over the phone I doubt he will let me have escourted leave after last night. Either way it will be wonderful to have a visitor that doesn’t trigger me.