I Have OCD with anxiety and I was doing fine for years coping on my own with this (Well and therapy no meds is what I mean) then I hit a period of REALLY INTENSE STRESS (still going through this stress it's a LONG story but trust me other than emotional stuff I have physical stuff I'm going through as well, surgery and other sort of illness) and so I'm like pushed up against a wall when it comes to stress.

Anyway I used to enjoy horror movies (Still do to some extent) but now they make me WAY too anxious and "Triggered" which is SO bizarre because I was 100% NEVER like that before and I'm really bummed out because horror was like my BIG thing and my favorite past time/hobby but now it just messes with me. I'm hoping it's really just stress and once I get through this rough patch I'll be okay but I mention this for one reason.

The other day my roommate was answering the phone and I hear him pick up and say hello and then go completely silent. So I call "Hello?" To him wondering what happened or who was on the phone, I mean silent as in it was clear he wasn't having a conversation with anyone like just listening. For some reason my brain decided to remember a Stephen King book from a long time ago titled "Cell" where people were getting phone calls and whatever message played on the other end turned them into violent mindless zombies instantly and they started attacking everyone. I had a mini panic attack thinking that's what's happening to my roommate while at the same time recognizing that was just a book and couldn't possibly happen but my dumb brain was like "you don't know that can't happen".

So is this a product of anxiety or am I actually going completely insane because of all this stress I am under? This is just ONE example of weird thoughts I have like this. Even though I recognize they are completely stupid and irrational that doesn't make me panic any less. Luckily I am usually able to talk myself out of the panic in about 30 seconds but WTF Is my brain even doing? Is this just anxiety or something more severe? For the record I am 30 years old, been seeing the same therapist for 10 years and they've never seen signs of anything other than severe anxiety and OCD. Given my age they probably won't find anything else either since I'm checking on it so regularly but is it possible to just suddenly become schizophrenic or something? Or is my anxiety just REALLY bad right now?