While I do sometimes experience euphoric hypomania it almost inevitably turns into a mixed episode. During mixed episodes I can turn from a patient, caring, generous, and loving woman into an irritable, agitated monster. I have said and done things that I deeply regret, especially if it involves hurting others. Having such a short fuse with racing thoughts is a recipe for disaster.

I always do my best to apologise, and make it up to those I hurt. It’s great that you can now have insight when things are starting to go amiss. That is the time to contact your pdoc and T ( if you have one). Shutting it down at the beginning is easier that further down the hypomanic track cause you will lose that insight as it worsens.