lol. i like the rock analogy. sometimes... i mean i don't know him very well... but sometimes i get the impression of him as being a little unsure of how to take some of your metaphors. i mean i haven't met him at all... but i guess i wondered if maybe he felt that way a little about the rock metaphor. don't know, though. dunno.

i'm doing better, yeah. had a bad couple of days because i %#@&#! up rather at work. kind of almost over it now, though, so feeling a lot better.

had a nice session on friday, too, so that kinda helped. helped to have some kind of idea what we are up to. strange... i think i've come to this understanding before, but then i lost it. think it comes and goes.

i've seen a little of thomas the tank engine. yeah, the useful thing. everyone wanted to be useful. do you get any kind of panicky connotations... about what might happen if a person (or engine) wasn't useful? i guess i'm wondering... cause my therapist says something sometimes... not sure what response is appropriate... but he says something about how i'm focused on external cues. i'm not sure if he thinks that is a bad thing or what... don't know. maybe he thinks it is one of my useful qualities? i think it is. i think it is.