Thanks guys. I just havent been able at times to say much at all here or in chat.I feel there is a huge cloud over my head and I am just so overwhelmed with what I need to do and what is going on in my life. I dont know how to handle it anymore. My cutting is worse, my depression is bad, I am supposed to quit trying to find happiness thru others and find it within myself and I dont even know myself well enough to know how to go about that. I need help from my family with my dad, and no one will help. I need some time away, as a dear friend told me to rediscover myself. Which is kinda weird because I dont know what is real about me and what is a part of my mask. I have lived my life to do for others, please others and protect myself from any conflict and harm and in that I have lost myself. How does one know what to do here? How do I find out who I am? I am totally lost here.

tryin