Hi Turtle_Rider. I am sorry you are finding meditation challenging.

For me the greatest challenge is to adjust my expectations so I am not expecting great things. I feel like it is like moving a truck load of sand with a teaspoon. I have to stop looking to check how I am doing and just stay in this one moment. I feel the breath going in and out. I hear, smell, taste or sense what my senses tell me. When I find the thoughts and or emotions start to carry me away, then I gently bring my attention back to this moment without judgement.

Padraig O'Morain on Self-Compassion

Mindful Acceptance