I finally met up with my mom and sister for dinner. It was hard. I didn't want to do it because I was nervous about being out in public. And part of me wanted to do it because it meant a lot to my mom. I'm just glad it's over with. I had a nice time. Unfortunately, I felt sad and uncomfortable while out. My sister was all dressed up, and so was my mom. I didn't do much with my appearance. I think I looked pretty awful. I was tired. I believe it showed in my face. My sister had just come from work. She said she was tired. She looked at me and said, "You probably don't know what it's like." I do know what it's like! Just surviving takes all my energy. Just because I don't have a job doesn't mean I'm lazy all day!!