hey tryin....
i dont know what you did to feel sorry, but stop beating yourself up over it.....
i dont know what you are going through, but i know what its like to feel sorry.....
you can always press pause on your attempt to find happiness in yourself... and continue finding happiness in other people....
finding happiness in yourself cant be forced.... you will just stumble upon it, and suddenly find it. Then you can continue to make that happiness in yourself grow... and grow... and grow.....