I have been seeing T for slightly over a year and half. We have been through a lot together and he has been a wonderfully, strong support for me during difficult times. We have also been through several ruptures and now we are learning to work through our differences. I am now able to recognize that we are both quite strong-willed but I feel that overall, my therapy is healing and helping me grow in a way I haven't before. Okay, fine, I love the guy!

T mentioned that next year he is putting together a group and asked if I would like to join. He thought it would be a nice next step for me in therapy and I agree with him. It sounds interesting. He said it would be a "process" group rather than a psychotherapy group and we would do some artwork, some movement and other things. I look forward to the new experience.

However, I panic because on some level I feel like that means T will never get to know those parts of me who are still inside of me screaming for his attention. Intellectually, I know this isn't true but emotionally there is/are little girls inside who are screaming and saying, "WAIT A MINUTE, DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND! I feel as though I better hurry up and let him know all of me before my chance is gone and I am stuck inside myself forever.

I wonder if any of you in long-term therapy have felt this longing.

Peace