Seriously though? I want a friggin cigarette. That’s why I’m here. Trying to ignore it. Distract! I’m sol anyway bc I can’t go out now and I can’t get any before work tomorrow so the soonest I could get them would be my lunch break. So by then I should be good. Just put a piece of hard candy in my mouth. Hope that helps.


We had a nice night yesterday. Took RS to the Indian restaurant down the street and he loved it. We decided to just go back home instead of out to the movies. Going to the movies on a Friday or Saturday night makes me nervous. Too many other people there. So we went home and watched the hangover pt 2. It was pretty funny.


Today RS had to work his side job again. I got some of my son’s presents wrapped. There are a lot more to wrap though. And I hate wrapping gifts. I can’t make them look pretty. But then I think my son’s not going to care about how well they’re wrapped. He probably won’t even care about the toys either, just the memories we make. We went to the light show again today. It’s a tradition. One I started after my husband had already passed so it’s not tainted by that.


I’m hoping I get enough sleep tonight that I don’t fall asleep during work tomorrow. I really hate that. It’s so embarrassing. I don’t know what my problem is! I wish coffee worked for me.