It's been an exciting day. I have had two visitors - Mum and best friend. I still find my Mum triggering but I also find being alone very difficult. My friend and I only see each other around 3 times a year. Need to try and make that happen more. She is a beautiful person. I guess I don't want to drag her down. In the past she has said she's scared to call me as she doesn't know which Wander to expect, or how to react if I am not coping. Just being here, or even talking on the phone would be helpful. It helped a lot having her here for an hour. I juts hope I didn't burn her out.

Secondly the registrar here explained a new technique that will highly likely shut down the fight or flight response, and hyper vigilance for months thus giving me a big break from this kind of stress. I set up a thread about it if you are interested in reading, or providing feedback to me.