No one I've ever known would have wanted to hear about my inner thoughts or wishes. They simply wanted me to fulfill the role I played in their lives. I learned very early in life, I don't know how, that there were things about myself I must never talk to anyone about. And so I didn't. And I still don't. Over the years, bits & pieces of it have inadvertently leaked out here & there. But, like the little Dutch boy, I plugged the leaks.