Wishing you the BEST of luck, @franz kafka! I am so sorry you're going through ALL of this! I Hope and Pray that everything will turn out alright for you and your Loved Ones. Keep us updated. Consider going to the Hospital if you feel like you may be a danger to yourself or others. I hope the Meds will help! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @franz kafka, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!