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Old Dec 09, 2019, 10:12 PM
I hate myself I hate myself is offline
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Hello all let me explain saying I hate pedophiles and don’t want anything to do with them, but my intrusive thoughts recently have been giving me thoughts otherwise.

Please help me, god please help from this... Do I have pure-OCD? Or am I a monster?

Am I pedophile in denial or is it POCD, or even a fetish?

Hello all, right now I am 15. I am struggling with what I hope is just POCD. Basically this story starts when I was 12,
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and am addicted to adult porn, mainly BBW, Hentai, and granny porn. Sometimes gay, incest, and MILF porn or gifs of big boobs bouncing do it for me. Sometimes Pokemon and MLP as well. I don’t want to become a pedophile and the very thought of it disgusts me and makes me nauseous. So I keep telling myself I am not a pedophile, but I’m starting to feel otherwise. I just want help,
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and I can never get rid of those times. I don’t desire children either, I am afraid of them sorta. Am I a pedophile or no? I would rather die than be one, kids don’t even turn me on. And I am afraid I might get the urge to look and masturbate to those pictures again, I wouldn’t ever want to repeat those times. I am so scared I am attracted to children I don’t even know what to do anymore, I avoid children, won’t do anything after a child, I don’t even look at children. And I think they are annoying. Please help me... I cannot take this anymore

Last edited by bluekoi; Dec 10, 2019 at 09:54 PM. Reason: Add triggger icon. Apply trigger codes.
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