You did nothing wrong. You've reacted the best that you possibly could under that particular set of circumstances. Who wouldn't be scared to death by seeing a gun pointed at you?! Please don't blame yourself. Keep repeating yourself that until you believe it. It Is the Truth. No matter what other people say! If you can, borrow some money from your family. Hopefully you'll be able to work something out. I am sure you will. I am REALLY glad you're safe and sound. Keep telling yourself that you did the best you possibly could. Breathe. Do something to distract yourself. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @brimaiski, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!