Heh ironically, I used to be a catwalk model for a moment.. McCourt was one of few, most people won't achieve things like that ever.. and imo age matters, like I'm a woman, won't be able to have kids at some point.. and everyone moved on, I missed out so many things.. even if agoraphobia would suddenly go away and i would start going out like before, people I used to spend time with don't have time for me anymore.. they after that phase..

Right now I eat mostly instant food.. I try to sell some stuff too and then buy something better, but it doesn't do much since I have big appetite and fast metabolism.. so fast that doc said I should eat more than most people to stay healthy.. so I need a job to afford food..

Yeah been there, in other forums too since anxiety and panic is just a top of an iceberg.. had mental support there which is nice, but no solutions..