Well, my mom phoned me and woke me up...damn...I didn't want to wake up so early....still highly stressed....took more Xanax.... I wan't to pass out again.....I can't handle all this anxiety....I'm self-medicating with extra Xanax so that I don't have to deal with it......I just want to sleep until I see my T tomorrow.....I just can't deal with this....it's way too much....damn phone.....I'm not going to answer it again.....I think I'll turn the ringer off when I pass out this time so nobody can wake me....damn, I'm getting another headache....i want my T, i want my T, i want my T.....why is this day taking so long to get through....not eating at all, can't even think about food ....just taking my meds.....and extra Xanax...that's the only way i can deal with this anxiety....i just want to sleep until tomorrow....i see my gp on friday too.....i will also talk with him.....I f'ng HATE this...damn Xanax is taking so long to work again....geez, it used to be fast but not today.....i'm just so majorly stressed and i can't handle it....might have to take a cab to my t.....don't think i can drive like this......i want my t, i want my t, i want my t.....i want to pass out, i want to pass out, i want to pass out....why aren't these pills working...f'ng pills work work work.....maybe i should take more....i didnt take as many as last time.....i'm taking more now....i'm not overdosing so don't worry about that....i just cant deal with this at all....i'm going to take more now.....not sure when i'll be back......cat, dont phone me.....i need my t....i need my t....i need my t....damn this anxiety. leaving now, taking more xanax first....laters alligators.....luv you cat